Chilling unheard audio recordings of Michael Jackson expressing his deepest “intimate” thoughts on children will be revealed in a new TV docuseries.
The superstar can be heard discussing his innermost feelings on his infatuation with kids.
In one eerie moment, Jackson confides that without children being close to him he would take his own life.
“If you told me right now . . . Michael, you could never see another child…I would kill myself,” he says.
Alarmingly, Jacko also confessed, “Kids end up falling in love with my personality. Sometimes it gets me into trouble.”
The breathtaking recordings also present a new take on how close Jackson felt to cancer survivor child pal Gavin Arvizo — who later accused him of sexual abuse in a 2005 criminal trial.
Unseen footage shows Jackson, who admitted he sharing his bed with kids, going on picnics with Arvizo alone on the grounds of Neverland.
Jackson was cleared on all 14 charges, including four counts of molesting a child, four counts of getting a child drunk so that he could molest him, and of secretly conspiring to hold the boy and his family captive at his California ranch. He was also charged with supplying alcohol to the boy, now 15.
UK production company Wonderhood Studios secured the tapes for a new Channel 4 series called “The Trial,” which airs next week.
The four-part bombshell series focuses on the events leading up to MJ’s 2005 trial.
One insider, who has heard the recordings, said: “There is something extremely unusual and eerie about Michael Jackson’s infatuation with children – especially those who are not his own.”
“To hear his voice discuss children in this manner, given he had been accused on molestation, raises many questions about his mental health, mindset and sadly, intentions.”
“This is Michael at his most open giving us an insight into how he was in love with children . . . infatuated with wanting to be around them.
“He sees nothing wrong in bringing kids to his home and his bed, without parental supervision, justifying those actions by saying he is a just a friend looking to help. He even went further — expressing how most of the spoiled children fell in love with him.
“These are very uneasy phrases and language to hear from a single man in his 40s.”
The insider continued: “There is footage too, which has been found, showing how Michael cared for Gavin when he battled cancer as a young boy. Many doctors felt that his diagnosis was terminal, but Michael never gave up hope. Michael described how he told Gavin he looked like an angel to him. The way that these could have been interpreted are fascinating.”
The Trial’s executive producer Tom Anstiss said: “The unheard audio tapes of Michael Jackson offer a rare and privileged window into Michael’s psyche and his soul. They deliver a new understanding of who Michael Jackson really was, what he thought and the seismic moments that shaped his life. The tapes are emotionally raw and very real. At points, you can hear Michael is close to tears.”
